“If you ask me how I'm doing I would say I'm doing just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind. But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two and finally I'm forced to face the truth; No matter what they say, I'm not over you. I'm not over you."
-Gavin DeGraw
Sometimes we do things that we can't take back. Forgivness is never easy. Biterness is easy. Hatred is easy. But forgivness, that's a tough one. Sometimes, people say things they don't mean or do things they can't take back.
It's like she's incredibly lonely. But too scared of getting close to anyone at the same time.
“Don’t you dare tell me everything will be okay. Because you don’t understand the pain I’m in right now. You don’t understand how my heart is shattered. You don’t understand the confusion. You don’t understand the innocence I lost so suddenly. Everything is NOT okay. In fact, its the farthest thing from that. And that is why I hate that phrase. Because, maybe someday in the future, things will be okay, or at least better than they are at this moment. But as of right now, as of this moment, things are not okay. So don’t you dare lie to me.”
Nothing is the same anymore. The looks aren't the same; the bond is not the same. Nothing is the same. I know we've fought to stay strong for a while, but sometimes I feel that being strong would mean letting go. So maybe one day, we won't pretend anymore. So maybe one day, it will be okay again. That’s all I want. I don't care what it takes; I want to be okay again.
Sometimes you need to be alone. Sometimes, you just don't want to be comforted. Because you need the chance to take it in. All that has been, all the pain left behind. The best cure is time on your own to analyze, time to pull yourself together again and time to see that all you ever wanted is now nothing but a fading memory. Time to let it go, and time to start again.